2005-07-28 - 8:23 a.m.
I can't get away from this situation for long. I was up till 2 am last night. I talked to my sisters about how they felt and tried to remain composed for their sake. But when I woke up this morning my Mama was the first thing on my mind and I'm crying as I type this. I have this habit of going to sleep with the tv on. So when I woke up the first thing I saw(after checking Zora) was this show on TNT called 'The Pretender'. And suddenly my mind went back to the time when Zora was a newborn. I had moved back in with my Mom when I learned I was pregnant. Knowing I'd be a single Mom she wanted me at home with her so she could help. And that's what she did. People always say that the first few months with a new baby are so difficult. But you know what? My memories of that time in my life are all positive. And that's only because I had my Mom there to show me how to be a Mom and help me. I never had any type of post-partum depression because I had her and my sisters. And now she is just gone. I couldn't have gotten through my pregnancy without her love and support. And now she is gone.
