2005-03-16 - 11:03 a.m.
Well winter quarter is almost over and boy am I glad. I'm doing ok. I expect to get a 3.0 in math, 3.1 in english and a 3.8 in intl affairs. I was looking over my transcripts a week aho and noticed that I made the Dean's List las quarter. I was quite proud of myself and hope to make the list again. In terms of school everything is going great. I am being awarded a scholarship this week. I don't know how much it is for but I am glad that Student Academic Assistance decided to give it to me. I will be taking four classes(20 credits) next quarter. I hope I can continue to make good grades. If things go as planned I will be done at this community college in the fall.
Well Ms Zora just celebrated her first birthday. We had a party for her on sunday that she really enjoyed. Unfortunately she has been sick since monday. We took her to the Dr yesterday and found out that she has a viral infection. The past few days have been difficult. Poor Zora keeps breaking out in a rash, is coughing and has congested sinuses. To make things even worse I've been fighting a flu. Baba has not been very understanding and I feel like he has been harsher on me while I've been sick than he usually is. As if he thinks I'm faking my sickness or something. Monday night we stayed up with Zora when her rash was bothering her. Its like 1am and all of a sudden I am hit with stomach cramps and hot flashes so bad that I collapse to the floor. He is holding Zora and trying to calm her down. Instead of asking me why I'm on the floor he yells at me to get up. I was so shocked and dissappointed! Don't get me wrong; I don't expect him to wait on me hand and foot; I know that Zora and her needs take precedence over everything. But I'm hurt that he would show such disregard for how I was feeling. He even admitted that he was being hard on me, but keeps doing it. And he was confusing me as well because on monday he told me to stay away from her because he didn't want her to get sick-that makes sense. But hour later he is raising his voice at me telling me to watch her so he can sleep? I don't get it. Then last night Zora is moving in the bed and needs to be readjusted. My nose is running like a faucet and I have to wipe my face with my hands to stop it from getting on the sheets. He tells me to fix Zora. I remind him that my hands are covered with mucus and ask him to do it so I don't have to touch Zora. He lets out a huge sigh and throws a hissy fit, so I'm like fuck it. I wipe my hands on my pajamas and move her. Hopefully he is just acting inconsiderate out of his stress and worry over Zora. Otherwise this attitude would be unacceptable.
