2004-04-29 - 2:03 p.m.
I've got about three weeks of maternity leave left, which means my "juggling" act will begin soon. I'm not that fazed about going back to work. If I keep my current job I'll have three days off a week. If I get the one I interviewed for, I'll work mon-fri. Either way I'd have to plenty of time to spend with Zora and that's what matters to me the most. Initially, I wasn't going to start school again until winter 2005. But a conversation I had this weekend made me re-evaluate that. I want to start in September. I'm also redoing my timeline. Before, I gave myself 4-6 years to accomplish all of my educational goals. But with focus and hard work I think I can do it in 2-4 years. I am somewhat worried about it though. Its not that I don't believe I can meet my goals; I'm confident in my abilities. Its just with so much on my plate now (motherhood, work, school and church), I'm scared of coming up short in any area. My biggest fear is Zora being shortchanged and not getting the quality time that she needs with me. I need to come up with a plan on how to manage my time efficiently before I start school. Otherwise I will get burned out before Zora gets to kindergarten.
