2004-04-21 - 3:20 p.m.
This week has been quite productive so far. Yesterday,I decided to go ahead & send out my resume to other local banks. One of them called me back & I went in for an interview this morning. I think it went well and I'm praying that I get the job. My commute would be much shorter and I'd have every weekend off(which means more time for Zora). I'm not going to be overconfident though; I will not "count the chicks before they hatch", as the saying goes. I am so silly though. I actually felt guilty looking for another job. I've been with my company for six years now-that's one-fourth of the time I've been alive. It was my first job out of high school. The pay is decent, the benefits are good and my current co-workers are excellent people. But I've been feeling like its time to move on;it feels like a dead-end. I've actually felt that way since last summer. The only thing that really kept me there was learning I was pregnant.I could not be without health insurance and had to make sure I had a steady income. Those things are still very important to me of ourse, but I know that I can get them elsewhere. And since I am on leave now, I figure I should take advantage of the time & see what else is out there. Besides, I can't go through life being afraid of any changes in the status quo.
I also began the process of taking out a life insurance policy. My Grandma's death showed me how important those matters are. I don't want my Mom to have to stress about coming up with the $$$ to bury me if something happens to me. And now that I'm a mother I want to make sure that Zora is taken care of when/if I pass away. So she will be the only beneficiary of anything I leave. Now I need to figure out how to tell my Mom that she won't be in charge of the actual funds. I love my Mom, but she just isn't good at managing money. There is no way I'd leave that amount to her. If Zora's father becomes a part of her life(and I still don't know if that will happen), I'd leave it to him since I'd expect him to raise her. If not, then my youngest aunt would be the one to handle it. She has the good sense and the wisdom, but most of all she can be trusted.
