2004-04-08 - 1:19 p.m.
Time goes by so quickly! Zora will be one month old on sunday. I am watching her now as she sleeps in her bassinet. I started the "unspoiling" campaign with her this week. Up until now I spent alot of time holding her, even when she was sleeping. So of course she got used to that and expected it all the time. My mom & my aunt would caution me, but I wouldn't listen. Then I had a two days last week where she was in my arms EVERY MINUTE of the day because she'd cry if I put her down. Its not too late to break her out of the habit though & it's been going well so far.
I am still amazed when I look at Zora. I've heard about the reproductive process for years, but seeing my own body go through it & beholding Zora, the result, is still so mind-boggling. To think that this perfect little person came from inside of me is such a trip! Zora is just so sweet and lovely. I feel like I fall in love with her again every day. I think of how much my Grandma would have loved her. Sometimes I still question God and wonder why didn't He let her live just another month so she could've seen Zora. Then I remember that it was best for my Grandma to go when she did. Besides, when Zora is older I will tell her plenty of stores about the great-grandma she never knew.
I decided that I am going to take Zora to church on sunday. She won't be six weeks old, but I figure that four weeks is close enough. Its not like she just came home from the hospital or anything so it should be fine. I hope she can fit one of her dresses. Well I am sure she can fit two of them, but they are both sleeveless and I don't think its warm enough to wear them yet. I can't wait though; I've got to take more pictures of her. Easter dinner is going to be hard for my family though. This will be the first one without my Grandma & her absence will definitely be felt. But we will get through it just as we've gotten through every other trial.
