2009-08-23 - 10:05 p.m.
What a long, lovely day! I cooked a nice dinner of pot roast, mashed potatoes and gravy. My sisters, my niece and nephew and my BFFs daughter all came over. We had a great time. I am so fortunate to have a core group that I love and can rely in. I always feel my mother's absence when I gather with my sisters, but its not as unbearable as it was in the past. Slowly, I am learning to accept life's disappointments and move past them. There have times when I have been consumed with pain and regret. But I realized that all the pain and regret in the world cannot change what has happened. So I think about the present and what I want for my future. That vision is in my mind at all times and I am eagerly working towards it. There will be some major changes taking place in the next six weeks. I can't say that I have no worries. I do feel a little nervous and insecure. However I know that I must take that first leap if I ever want to fly. So I am going to rearrange my life. And even if it doesn't work out perfectly, at least I tried!
